Soon, Just Wait It Out

Several days ago I found myself a bit discouraged about how long things seem to be taking for my personal goals and God-given mission to take off. This coming as I supposed myself to finally be at the end of a lengthy waiting season. But, it turns out there’s still a bit more waiting to go. It’ll end soon though, so I guess I’ll just have to wait it out!

Now, don’t freak out at what I just said! I’m not contradicting my last post. I didn’t say that I doubted that my God was with me. I didn’t doubt it! I didn’t say I wasn’t willing to face whatever I must in order to maximize the Kingdom. I was still willing! I was just momentarily aggravated, frustrated, annoyed really. But that’s okay, the Lord is patient through this! He surely feels my pain. I can only imagine how He must have been tempted by these feelings on His life-road to Calvary! (Hebrews 4:15) His grace was and is forever sufficient to cover these things!

So what exactly was I discouraged about? That, though I have much support for my life, ministry, and mission, it’s taking a lot of time to garner much more of that support. I expected this to be the case, but it was weighing on me in a particular way that I didn’t anticipate. It is so hard to carry within yourself a hefty vision that has no end and not quite enough of the support and exposure that it needs and deserves! And even harder to not get publicly up in arms about this perception! You see for every handful of people I share my heart with, it seems I’ll only get one who’s truly excited about it. And from those that are excited, it can seem as though it takes them quite a while to really act on that excitement. Which totally makes sense, people are busy! But it’s hard to handle because it amounts to more waiting!

The funny thing is, the frustration this subtly brought on resulted in amplifying some ill-placed discouragement I faced that day in relation to something much more innocent. Without going into detail, something I was really looking forward to that day fell through. So from there, I unintentionally took that to the next level, thinking to myself, “Of course! Guess I’ll just have to keep waiting on that too! In fact, I’ll be waiting for a million years on everything!” Yes, I too am an overdramatic human. Coupled with that, there were *gasp*… emotions. Later that day the Lord thankfully clarified the situation though! I had to laugh as I recognized the ridiculousness of the whole thing. It wasn’t until then that I truly realized what was going on in my spirit. God opens our eyes in some interesting ways! Praise the Lord when He does!

Honestly, I should have never entertained those ideas of aggravation, frustration, and annoyance in the first place though. It was wrong! I can admit that. Every time those attitudes arise in me or you, it is a demonstration of a lack of trust in the Father and His plan. It’s a sign that we’re still holding on to a little piece of our own will. That we think, often subconsciously, that our idea of how the plan should go is still best. And that’s no good; I don’t want that!

I certainly don’t know best! If more waiting is what I see, then more waiting is what I need! Clearly I still have some submitting to do. That’s great though, because ultimately that’s what I want! He must increase, and I must decrease (John 3:30)!

I hope to instead start viewing all times of waiting as wonderfully good things. They have their purpose and they have their fruit! There is pain in the process, but let’s focus on the process rather than the pain!

I feel the Father telling me, “Soon Logan. Just wait it out.” I think I’m becoming cool with that! And may I never forget it!

I am beginning to see verses like these in a new light of appreciation:

“Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD!”
‭‭Psalm 27:14‬ ‭

“I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, And in His word I do hope. My soul waits for the Lord More than those who watch for the morning— Yes, more than those who watch for the morning.”
‭‭Psalm 130:5-6‬

“Therefore I will look to the LORD; I will wait for the God of my salvation; My God will hear me.”
‭‭Micah‬ ‭7:7‬